Friday 10 October

Was up early. Managed to get cleaned well. Took a brief shower and brushed. Yesterday, started getting a rash but today it's better. Churcb wars are ongoing due to blackmail from the Liew witches who dug up the dirt on my Pastor who is now trying to dig up my dirt of which there is none significant so he ridiculed me to the other members. Not sure what to do about it.

Anyway, we'll be heading out for lunch later, Dad says. Will wear my Orient Tristar -an affordable watch. It gained about 5s in 3/4 day which is about +7s / day.

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Back from lunch at the mall with the folks. I bought a Tachikawa nib holder for 22RM. Also got Coke and some baked rice snacks. I bought a square ruled notepad. Something portable which I can draw on with my Isomars before I transfer the studies to my main sketchbook which will be for sale or a copy-of which is cheaper. I find my character designs are improving a lot. Maybe I deserve the Tachikawa. Aesthetically, it's very pleasing, with a slight waist and flare.

Managed to get cleaned well again. I sometimes go twice daily as the evil Liew witches keep some of my waste in to make me smelly after my shower. Such are our sufferings that I for example cannot be very peaceful in the heart or careful in my labors for God. Worse still that we live in the confines of a shoebox house without my private bathroom and shower. At least we're no longer neighbors to the Liews. Visiting the old house, a swarm of a dozen dengue carrying mosquitoes flooded into our metro despite the dry heat of early afternoon.

I won't be starting my art hobby / career until next week. Today, I have to edit EOSotB some more which will take up the whole night. Mom is cooking bacon and eggs for dinner -a welcome change of diet. I drank Coke and ate rice crispies. Tomorrow, a hard 3 minute run round the block, then tomorrow a long walk just nearby. 

Ended up I had to cook dinner as the folks were tired. Quite a good dinner finished off with Haagen Dazs ice cream, caramel and cinnamon flavor (Spanish recipe). You can tell if bacon is cooked by it shrinking and crinkling, so Dad would know it were well cooked despite the lack of crunch.

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Finished today's editing work on EOSotB. It was invigorating to work my brain. Now time for meds, to brush and work out before midnight. Hit by butt poking again but managed to clean up okay. Will work out circa midnight. Just take a rest from thinking so hard on the editing. I went out on a limb at times and I hope nobody calls me out as false, dissecting Gospel at such a low level!

Thursday 9 October

Was up early. Managed to get cleaned well. Took a shower and ate sardine sandwiches for lunch. It came to pass that the west asked for a shift of blame off their backs from using negative telepathy and it was time for that to happen so I and the Lord engineered a solution.

Right now, there is an outcry from Asians and some westerners about going to heaven. This, the Lord prepared me for. Last night we talked about the purity of gold and the difference between 18k and  22k gold. For the Bible says God shall test us like gold. A few small scratches on the chain clasp of Dad’s handed down necklace show it had been tested destructively but just a smidgen. And I reckoned it had been handed down from mother to son (granny was old money), then changed hands to a family who married in, and therefore was tested for authenticity by the wife of the heir before she handed it down herself. It must be a very old chain to be twice tested.

And the point is, God tests us but it is just a scratch on our pride. And the mark of having passed God’s test is worn with honor, exalting us even as we remember we were once unclean. And this brings me to the book of Zechariah, chapter 13. It is obviously post 2nd coming, and people are becoming attuned to the Lord. Such that if any should prophesy, he would be in shame / put to shame. And he would say, my friends beat me up in their house(s).

The truth is there is no power (to save) without sacrifice, letting of blood, the passion of Christ. The gift of salvation is like handing down gold to a strange one, and it will be gouged for testing, our flesh will bear the wounds who preach. And so it will come a time when heaven is on earth and we gouge ourselves for any in-appreciation of the Savior.

What does this mean for the salvation of our common folk? Well, you have tested the gold and afterwards God says you have to test yourselves yourself when “I am among you”. So how is salvation then such a mystery to those with eyes and ears to understand? More later…

After some discussion, we arrived on Jesus’ simple answer which puts our analysis to shame: “if you do any good of yourselves, then be keeping with it, likewise if it be wickedness, then so be it that way”

 

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Just finished a day of editing my Christian novella. I did chapters 5 and 6 which were pretty hard going. Am now halfway thru augmenting and elucidating the book otherwise others may think I am a Christian hoax. The book is rather freewheeling and the math is a bit cutting veering on the heretical. It was meant to spark debate, revival. 

 

Wearing my budget Orient automatic. It looks the part of the poor man that I am while being of some quality and heritage. Nevertheless, I am not poor in Spirit, as I continue to work on and off, teaching Gospel until the end of my allotted days.

 

Thought of buying myself some stuff as life is a bit depressing and both Mom and Dad got premium presents (from me). But I can't think of any premium presents I need...

 

Brushed and took my meds. I am a little constipated again. Bit of a rough patch lately with stress from church etc. Have to work out before midnight. Kidneys are healthier tho. But the niggling little attacks from the Liew witchy 6 on my body carry on. 

Past 11:30pm. Worked out. Feeling good. Was sedentary most of today except for a short hop to the grocer. 

Wednesday 8 October

Was up early, circa 5am. Managed to get cleaned well. Throat felt a little parched. Almost developed a cough. Liew witchy forces pain-giving my ex-GF again. Might as well take a shower. Just had a brief one, not to take up the washroom in case Dad or Mom need to go. Such is living in a shoebox.

Almost 6am. Might as well resume editing my novella, EOSOTB.

Took a nap instead of doing my work. Parcel may go on delivery in an hour or so. Haven't prepared yet. Parcel went on delivery just now. Prepared the money. Also shaved my groin area with a women’s Venus razor. After some months, it gets overgrown and unkempt. Tried to do my nuts too. Worked quite well. Needed moisturizer afterwards. Should receive my parcel in a few hours.

While waiting for my parcel, now 2pm past, I decided to write pseudo equations based on Gnostic Biblical beliefs.

We often hear, "times, a time, and the dividing of a time" which is 7/2 also written as 2 + 1 + 1/2

If we arrange 1, and 1/2 in a right angle, we get 1.118 as the hypotenuse. Multiplied by pi, this gives very nearly 3.5 which is times, a time, half a time as the circumference of a circle. Then if we take 2 and multiply that to 1.118 and pi we get a circle roughly 7 units in circumference.

Creepy that the ratio of the areas of the small and big circles is 4:1.

1/2 , 1 , 2 , 4 , 3.5 , 7 are 'holy' numbers. They define an ecosystem of relationships that perpetuate. More interesting would be to speculate and see if we can get exactly round figures as there is a bit of decimal place error in the calculations, or perhaps define a standard error amount.

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Checking back, I noticed the Deathadder v2 used to sell for 200RM. Now is 153RM, quite a good deal. Already 4pm. Shouldn’t be long to wait. I tore off my beach shorts’ inner underwear and just wear a normal underwear inside it as the original fabric had ripped badly. This morning, my ex-GF’s friend almost erected me while I was out and some may have noticed it. Me and my ex still hang around one another in mindspace, and sometimes we play.

The parcel came at last, almost 6pm. The Deathadder v2 is certainly well-built and you can feel the quality. It's definitely better than the Logi G-series mice tho those are a bit cheaper. The feel of my Armageddon Foxbat-III -you can tell it was cheapest.

Had dinner out with the folks. Just basic Chinese fare. Stewed eggs, stewed dried tofu, pork cuts, fried bread, fried lettuce, fried fish. Not sure what was going on -something is up in the western parts. Just have to be patient and wait till it becomes clear what to do.

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I managed to finish editing chapter 3: an exhaustive discourse on money. And now I can explain how the second half of the book comes to be that way -the liberal sexual themes towards the end.

Brushed and worked out. Take my meds at 11pm. Will write a Medium article before I resume editing. Sleep around 2am.

Took meds at midnight. Talked to Mom who is sad, counting the future with her family, as usual. Almost 1am and still 4 pages to edit before turning in. Drank black iced coffee. Feeling okay. 

Tuesday 7 October

Was up early. Managed to get cleaned well. Did some good editing work on my Christian novella. There were a lot of formatting errors. Soon to head out to psych clinic. My church is under attack again by the evil Liew witchy 6 and their western baby posse. Not sure what to do. The mind wars are very convoluted and can't be ended easily.

The mouse I ordered for Dad should ship today and arrive tomorrow. Can't wait. 

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Back from psych clinic. Everything went well. We had lunch at the downtown mall. I had to loo again after last night’s supper of beans. Took a shower and resumed adding my footnotes. Explaining the text to the reader is quite fun. Making good headway. It will be done by the weekend. I think one of my church mates has fallen in love with me but is already married. This is odd. But natural. Anyway, I am staying away from church for some time until everything cools down - the witch fight and all its fallout.

Took a shower and changed but was roped into kitchen duty by Mom. So I made the folks pasta, tomatoes, and meatballs. Quite tasty. Will carry on editing later tonight as there are wars breaking out against Christians right now. I will skip tonight’s workout, maybe just do some stretches.

Dad’s mouse has shipped. I am contemplating letting him unbox it himself as it will be his actual birthday when it arrives.

Mom showed us the moon. It was huge. Biggest and brightest I ever saw it. Glowing like a torch. This, the penultimate day of mid autumn festival.

Monday 6 October

Was up lateish. Managed to get cleaned well. Brushed. Didn't work out last night, just talked about the reality of the Kingdom of God, the Word and the Spirit in mindspace. Will take a shower. Head out soon. I need a change of environment and a walk will do me good. Tonight to work out before my Arip jab tomorrow when I usually take a break.

Editing my Christian novella is going slow. May take another 2 days.

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Back from my first long walk in many weeks. I was at Decathlon, later Amcorp. Monday but the traffic was light. I used the overpass to cross the roads -get some exercise in. Had an iced coffee to rehydrate and donated a few coins to charity -all my metal change. I still keep it up, doing my little bit.

Feeling really refreshed. A long walk every week would be good and one breakneck run too. My blood test is coming up and I need to fit in more exercise, diet a bit more. Don't feel much like editing my Christian novella but I have to give it a once over like iS and The Gold Jacket. 

LiLian and co acted out again, their pain from living a wrong life was palpable. But we have to defend our lives too, not betray one another. We are all worth something to God. To our families and community. Feel like buying something on Shopee. Maybe just 1 or 2 hundred RM.

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Almost 4pm. Took a much needed shower and am in fresh clothes at last. Haven't been editing for the past few hours altho I had nothing much to do. This novella will take some time, I think.

Bought Dad a bigger mouse, he has large hands and has been suffering my smaller mobile mice since he lost his Sculpt Mouse. Hope it arrives later tomorrow, not in the morning as I have psych clinic. Helped Mom make garlic ginger stir-fry chicken for our dinner. Tastes okay.

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Took my meds circa 9:30pm, brushed. Worked out, feeling energized. Am being prevented from editing my Christian novella right now. William didn’t feel safe without some havoc going on around him. I guess that’s logical. But within reason.

Hope to sleep by midnight. Am getting better at playing the 12 hole ocarina. Liew witchy forces are still lashing good people. Can’t decide what watch to wear tomorrow. This morning, I didn’t wear one out. I think I will cold turkey give up on buying more watches even if I were saved up.

No more computer gear, sports gear, shoes and apparel. Less records and books. No more stationery or toys. By EOM, I will have 1.2kRM  saved. By my birthday, maybe 1.8kRM. Can’t buy even a mid high end G-Shock or a Mac Mini M4. And if I were to save another 2 months, I could have one and just 200RM left saved. Not prudent. Live within our means.

Had my occasional orgasm which melts the stress away of being a trained monkey for the very important, deceived by the Liew witchy 6. Almost time for bed. Tomorrow, an early day. Hopefully a good one.

Sunday 5 October

Was up late. Managed to get cleaned well. Will take a shower at 10am. Go on a long walk tomorrow morning. At 3pm, house cleaning starts. May go on a brief run in the afternoon before lunch. People from America crashing heads together. They seem needy of comforting.

Bad people in the mindspace mistreated me and now are facing a reality that I'm the best place for them to roost, where increasingly they do not trust / enjoy being at. A pitiful situation that is gradually eating up the world of telepaths even non-telepaths.

I wrote my daily Medium article on Bible study: are we sinners who love Christ? Give it a read if you can -its' FREE.

Will be going on a run in half an hour. Just round the block, to re-energize and  burn off the rich food we've been eating since yesterday. Back  from my brief run. Recovered fast despite going at breakneck speed. Am feeling quite good. Another one, later next week. An hour or so to rest before house cleaning. Want to work on formatting my short story collection.

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Had kurma curry and a salad for dinner, with some brown bread. Finished editing my collection of short stories 'The Gold Jacket". Now am editing "Exploration: Open Secrets of the Bible". This will be the final book I edit (that I wrote myself). I am working at top speed to get all the new info I gleaned, into this novella and to make it more perfect so that believers may be encouraged.

Managed to get cleaned well again. Was uncomfortable thinking I had gas. Do I actually eat that much? Vital to cleanse before undertaking spiritual work! 

Saturday 4 October

Was up earlyish. Managed to get clean well (had to go twice due to gas). Brushed and will shower soon. I didn't finish editing iS nor do I feel like a long walk to New Town today. Mustn't rush the process. Will probably print on Monday.

American kids realize that the Liew witchy armies are well-oiled and efficient -they tortured me in passing towards their objective, delayed by a few hours from full success.

Somehow I can’t wear my Mudman Solar which I quite like. I have to strap on the Prospex diver with the stripped crown tube I DIY repaired with a sliver of sticky store ‘paid’ tape. I also am not allowed to appreciate my handiwork by Americans put on ‘Jesus watch’ by LiLian and co. She made dozens of antichrist mines and bombs. Most triggered onto trusting innocent Americans.

It’s now my job to dismantle machines made by Allen, onto the westerners who were innocent, thus crippling their consciences. He used the Bible in a negative way to destroy those claiming to have faith. The best way out is to understand your body. Not your mind, soul, spirit, but BODY.

The best way is thru fasting and prayer. I will show you how. Then orgasm or experience great pleasure in celebration of umm… freedom? Pain and pleasure are the motivations of your body. Not hope, grace, or faith. These are things of HIGHER LEARNING and they exist in the collective unconscious or the Spirit Christians share. Let me explain,

Fasting and prayer should be done in a cool space with no distractions. You can sit in the park, by the seaside, in your a/c room, a library, anywhere comfortable. You may only eat and drink after 6 hours, a limited bite and sip. You must fast for 40 hours. Prayer is not talking to the air, pressing your mind and heart together, but knowing and amplifying your body’s needs step by step until you enter a state of mind close to Spirit. For example, I may need food, sex, sleep, exercise, a makeover, therapy, more hair -that’s the first step. How to go up one more is prayer. Then pray again, again, until you are in Spirit with the Lord. Ask him to bless your study of gospel / what have you.

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Christian values: are they shown or known? Are they on display or for game-play? Do we behave like Jesus? Can we choose our 'Saint'?

The simple answer is that people are not the same in circumstances and the Lord calls people of a-like together. Not people of diversity. Always people of a-like.

Having done so being gathered, there is no need to display or show anything extra than who you are. And if nobody respects who you are, then you may choose to leave -it's a free world. You can always rejoin when circumstances (for you) have changed.

As I am shepherding online, for free, and without a fixed church venue, I must tell you that if you cannot find a church, you can find my church. The door is always open to my heart and my e-mail. There is no charge or obligation as it is all online only. If we happen to meet in person, then call me 'Kuang' and I will buy you an Americano.

But what are these values all believers share? They are the values of Abraham -he was simple like a child, righteous like a leader of men, intelligent as a master / trader, forgiving to his wife, willing to break laws to survive his family and friends, knew he was important to God -a father of many nations. Accepted circumcision. Likewise do we control our sexual urges for the Lord.

Sexual urges for men and women are different. A man must, in circumstances, be ready to give seed. A woman must not cry out as if she were birthing. Such does the Lord expect. He is merciful to those without a partner. Do not be gay if you can stand it -it will do you good in the Kingdom.

Do not go near negative places or people. They engender diseases. Even so, avoid certain negative thoughts or emotions. They engender weakness of the immune system. Of course, if you have to destroy, then destroy but teach first if possible that it might be known you tried. Build a rep beat the trap.

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Not sure what to wear out today. Don't feel like taking my vest. Just bring my keys maybe. Like when I go running. I've almost finished editing the final draft of iS, my sci-fi novella. It even as a cool cover I made in Photoshop and Canvas. And I wrote a blurb on the back that's decently enticing. My genre is pulp speculative fiction, a bit upmarket.

Some UK witches pushing me to marry Sara Lubratt but she has her pick of men so why bother? Being unwell and besieged by telepathy. I may not make my 49th birthday, which somehow worries the witches.

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Took a much-needed shower and washed down there. I have been gassy today. Editing work is done. I don't think I can make iS any better. Waiting for Monday to print and bind a few copies. We are stretching the Liews' clothes out of size -a cheap prank but most annoying. We can also shrink their bodies permanently, if they place their magic over the expanded clothes.

Tomorrow, I want to finish up DeepSeeking my Tai Chi book's first 1/4 into English. Hope it works. Need to rescan 3 pages with the iPad.