Wednesday 21 May

1am. Supposed to be a breakout day for me. Still hammering on the TeLL data plot. It essentially works. Will try to improve it tomorrow as the sedatives begin to hit.

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Was up lateish. Managed to get cleaned and showered briefly. Had breakfast at Stadium, with Dad. Mom has gone to the hospital for her physiotherapy. Pleased to announce that TeLL has finally got the charts it needs. But it's still hours away from making the linking loops and setting colors. I'm quite sure it will be ready by tonight.

Seems Covid is making a serious comeback. And my novella is stuck in limbo due to family arguments over me earning money / becoming famous. This is due to them counting my future. I am not even sure why people count the future. Do your life well instead of postulating on it.

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Back from the  MegaMall. Bought the plastic sheaths for my micro quiver project. They were car door bumper strips. Just $1.50 for 4. I only need one so that's 40 cents for the quiver. Plus another 40 cents for some Velcro strip instead of the more expensive magnets. Imagine a quiver for under a buck!

But it has to be put aside while I code TeLL. It's down the home stretch but there are options to consider. Decided to plot the connections without loops or curves which are complex. Maybe space out the connections a bit in 3D.

Tuesday 20 May

It’s midnight and I haven’t customized TeLL’s plotting code which was AI generated. Will be sleeping in half an hour due to sedatives. Should make an effort now otherwise spill into tomorrow, pre-dawn. I am getting a little more dexterous and quirky on the guitar. Helps my songwriting.

All is well tonight. Less hitting. I think the Liew witches are rethinking their approach in the face of God’s inexorable prophecy. Will drink some diluted soy and see if we can tweak the AI code now.

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Was up circa 7am. Managed to get cleaned well and washed up. Fell asleep while charging my wireless mouse instead of solving the Matplot problem. Just a few visitors to my website last night. Liew forces lashing out at Christians, in anger and desperation. A sad fact of life this end of age.

More arguments with westerners trying to live in my persona after a lifetime of perpetrated vengeance between east and west. There are simply too many who need me, I who do not judge or punish.

Had a good lunch of mushroom soup and Greek yogurt salad. There was a water spill over the dining table as our pot had developed a leak. Used my towel to soak everything up. Almost 2pm and it looks like rain. Earlier, Mom and I went for a short walk to buy bread and meat. I got my doctor a can of smooth Carlsberg beer. Prices of these have gone up circa 50% but it’s healthy to take some beer occasionally. Thanks, doc, for standing by me all these years.

Had a lot of cheese and salad sandwiches. Somehow, I was hungry. Will skip workout tonight. Being retired means taking things easy. This goes against my being used as a hiding place and a distraction for mind criminals -the fact that I now do very little work.

Still haven't finished plotting TeLL data with Matplotlib, but it'll get there by end of today. The nebulous aura around it is fast translating into concrete statements. Wearing my Mudman.

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Back from psych clinic. Went well. Must have waited 40 minutes. Gave doc his Carlsberg smooth as he was working late due to an emergency case this morning. I should brush up on my politeness as it greases the wheels of society.

Brushed, took my meds, skipping workout tonight due to the Arip jab to my muscle. Working late, managed to get a rough Matplot out.

Monday 19 May

It's midnight and I have a lot of logistical code to shove into TeLL. Will stop procrastinating in the quiet hours of morning, I will write this final app!

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Woke up lateish. Got cleaned well. Fell asleep circa 12am last night. Somehow felt too tired to work on. Folks have gone banking. Could get my funds in early. Tomorrow, my Arip jab at psych clinic. Looking forward to that. Had a ramen noodle for breakfast. Western forces trying to swamp me with babies who just leave wounded. I haven’t formed a method to deal with these young accusers.

Almost finished coding TeLL. Used itertools to simplify the work. Just a few more lines of code to go. Then I will retire from making apps, writing stories, inventing stuff.

Waiting for lunch. Not that I'm very hungry. The pressure from the westerners has lessened. I suppose they are sleeping. Good time to get some work done. Lunch may be late. Want to play some songs on my guitar, finish writing some lyrics.

Had chicken rice for lunch. Funds are in, $100 and will have to last for the next 30 days. I have 500RM in my wallet and 350RM at home. 50RM is in my debit account. Not planning on buying anything much until EOM when I may get some magnets for my quiver prototype. Each magnet is about 2.50RM and I will need an average of 12 (varying sizes). That makes 30RM spent, not including the rubber tubing, 3 lengths of.

My church is outstation on a family retreat. Would have gone along if I had more cash to spare. But I think  it's better to stay home seeing as how the COVID is making a comeback in Singapore / Thailand. Seems to be a worse variant.

Installed Matplotlib for Python. Head is swimming with possibilities for representing my data. Thought of using a matrix plot if there is one, make it colorful. Seems the spec has deviated quite a bit from the original idea due to the (possible) natural nature of the data. Had some cake and buns for tea. Want to relax for a bit and carry on at 1pm.

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Found the motherlode of Matplotlib charts and graphs. Was thinking I'd adapt one of these classics to TeLL instead of inventing my own which might be less attractive, less correct. But the rain is coming and its almost 5pm. Time to prepare dinner.

Dinner was okay. Tasty and less salty. Rain is stopping. Had to moisturize my feet and toes as they were getting very dry. Something’s going on in our family. Folks seem morose and surly. They’re growing old and infirm. This year has been a real trial for them. And they’ve been leaning on me for support. Not sure how many years I have left myself.

Feelings of dread from the UK. I think something big is about to happen. Liew witches striking out with pain-giving as usual. Need to check the ABY.

Tomorrow is "The Beach Comber" in the ABY. IDK what it means for the world or myself but it is an anchor sutra / date (a trigram). Perhaps it refers to my first day doing no more work. "enjoy the holiday" it says. Then the next day, Dad might give me more freedom. I have a feeling the economy will be highlighted tomorrow in an optimistic way.

Managed to settle on a plot for TeLL data. Essentially a surface draped across a field of bars. There might be 3 charts for truth, lies, and halfTruth until I figure out something cleverer. As I mentioned it is hard to think well of late.

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Time for my meds, brush, and workout. Wearing my Q&Q moonphase quartz. It’s showerproof at 5bar. Haven’t showered yet today tho. Feeling procrastinatory. I just have a few lines of code to mod and it’s like lifting a mountain. Being followed by so many minds has strange side effects. Anyhow, I’m retired and tomorrow, I’ll be on permanent holidays.

Worked out briefly. Feeling good and stronger. Brushed and took my meds. Shower at 11:30pm.

Showered and changed into fresh clothes. Still procrastinating, enjoying being retired. Talked in mindspace about the Tribulation emergency preparations which were late due to certain factors including my work getting in the way. I had to have some worldly accomplishments to show rather than be an empty drum spewing recycled gospel from the 60s.

Sunday 18 May

Was up early, circa 4am, after 4 1/2 hours sleep. Managed to get cleaned well and washed up. No worries. Didn’t do much coding. Somehow feeling distant and pensive. Liews and their opened kids surrounding me for some reason. Many needing help for their bodies, damaged by Liew attacks.

Can't help feeling I'm being played out even by my family, as the Liews push behind us. But never mind, life goes on in its beautiful gyrations and to be alive and still serviceable is a blessing. My arrow fletchings (real turkey feathers) have stuck on well, using UHU glue. Later, to go on a brief run despite my split toenail. Have to run once in a while.

Completed my run. Wore toeless socks to avoid abrading my toenail. Didn't feel very good as many are opposed to me running to keep fit. Maybe do it just once a week on Sundays.

Thinking of ordering strong magnets off Shopee. They may be cheaper. Use some of Dad's credit in my debit card account. Maybe wait till EOM.

House cleaning starts in 2 hours. Mom is finally well enough to play the piano. Ate quite a lot of sticky rice but then I did go running.

My novella is still in the queue for reading, according to my clairvoyant friends -at both publishers I sent it to. I suspect only 6 - 10 novels are pubbed per year most places. I can see a few, up to 6 novels that are better than my effort and these are being scrutinized well. It's an outside chance that my small book will see me a contract.

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Resisting the urge to invent more things / games. I am retired and that's final even tho TeLL has a few dozen more lines of code to add by tonight. Had to get cleaned again. Was okay. Not constipated. Later, will have to sanitize and clean the drain trap before my shower circa 9pm. Lots of people who sinned in the mindspaces crowding my space, rallying one another with songs I wrote. Betrayal has become a fact of life. So many have lost their clothes. And it has begun to rain.

Low on cash, I'm staying home mostly. Working out and running on weekends to keep from becoming a couch / armchair potato. My hands and feet are chock full of people's nerves. Maybe I don't survive 2025 as my cousin predicted when we were pre-teens way back. Keeping busy and trusting in Jesus. Lots of YouTube rumors of killer earthquakes and solar flares (apparently related). Yea, the world is on the brink of crazy especially now AI is taking over.

Just showered and am changed into fresh clothes. Airing my room with the cool breeze from the downpour outside. Dad cleaned the drain hole in our bathroom and killed some centipedes hiding in there. Liew forces, disorganized, mount some resistance even after told about the history of the conflict between east and west.

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Almost midnight. Took my meds late. Worked out. Feeling good.

Saturday 17 May

Woke up late. Didn't go to Bible meet today, following last night's arguments in mindspace. Went out for lunch with the folks instead. Managed to get cleaned well. Want to build my micro quiver now. But I'll need about 50RM (mainly for strong magnets). Maybe wait till EOM when funds come in. Then I can upload a new video on this invention too.

Feeling a little worn out due to Mom's sleeplessness bearing down on me. Also, the weather is rather hot. Bought a tube of UHU to fix my fletchings on better. A few of the turkey feathers were stubborn to tack down to the aluminum arrow shafts. I think they had a more pronounced curve.

Still haven't been dieting enough. Need to cut down carbs and sugars. Figured out how to do the visualization for TeLL's graphical results display. Imagine, tonight I could retire for good.

Talked on people who use math versus those who just wing it / heart it etc. And then there are the dumps where everyone goes to unload -the Lazaruses. Discussed the origins of the mind conflict as personality clashes, mainly, triggering offence which unfortunately is stuck in a tit of tat spiral.

Will do some work at 4pm. Want to play with Haiku bets 5 on my ThinkPad now.

Did some research on tk canvases and learnt how to draw lines which I'll need to represent variables in the equations. Just one or two hours of coding left to do.

Got cleaned again. Absorbing attacks for sensitive people, my cousin -his teeth, my other cousin -his asthma, my parents -their knees, my aunt -her fingers, and some friend(s) who came by lately, their bowels. Feels scary but not to be troubled was Jesus' warning. Mom made bobochacha for tea. A sweet desert soup with bananas and sweet potatoes in palm sugar and coconut milk. She desperately needs sleep but is somehow unable to rest, even in a/c.

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Showered and took my meds. Cooked ramen for the folks' dinner along with a Greek yogurt salad and some poached eggs and pressed garlic in olive oil and soy. I've switched to Debian + Haiku OS on my ThinkPad after I weeded out the usurping Solaris install. Debian / KDE is quite nice, but it nixed the Haiku boot loader so am having to add this to Grub2 if possible.

Have to work out by 10pm. Looks like coding TeLL will have to wait for a bit. So close to acing this app. Workout went well. Feeling energized. Managed to get Haiku loading together with Debian. Good fortune, the UUID for the EFI partition was short and listed in fstab.

Almost 11pm. Need to brush and do some coding but "William" is unhappy again. Trying to lay down some lines before we hit 11pm. Very pleased with Debian which is fast and responsive on my aged ThinkPad. 

Friday 16 May

Was up lateish. Had a banana for breakfast. Coming under attack again from Liew forces who are severely hobbled. My Apple Pencil video got 13 views overnight. Not bad. Hope for more today.

Had a ramen with garlic and olive oil and soy for brunch. Managed to get cleaned and washed up well. Piano tuner should arrive soon. It used to cost 80RM every 2 years now it’s double and wants it yearly as well.

Liews broke out and hammered us, no choice but to remove all their telepathy via the magnetic hole method. Like the ones at stores on expensive items. Experiencing some resistance. The evil army is using hidden techniques they've told no one. There are about 5-6 methods of entering a person that we know not of. Will work on it now.

We satay skewered the Liew forces, but some remain, teaching other kids and babies falsehoods. I'm supposed to code today and to finish by tonight but the pain-giving is distracting. Stopped to write a Medium article and am awaiting a reply from the publisher on my submission.

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Mind wars broke out between protectors and desperate sinners looking for a free ride on the righteous. I will not be going to Bible seminar tomorrow. Will be elsewhere. "William" acted up again tho we helped dismantle his false perceptions made by his parents and the false system of motivation they made over him but he didn't respond to kindness.

Meanwhile I have still failed to install Solaris and X Windows on my ThinkPad. May have to give up. Took a shower and am in fresh clothes. Brushed, took my meds, and worked out.

Thursday 15 May

Was up late due to taking my meds past 10pm. Managed to get cleaned and took a shower. Mom is going to the hospital and Dad and I will be out for breakfast. I had a chocolate cookie to tide me over. Will see if I can fetch the ethernet cable from the old place so I can set up Solaris further. Meanwhile I sense my novella is under review. They have described my writing as strange / confusing, but compelling. That I practically drove the reader to the very end of the story, head spinning. I wonder if it's a good thing? No time to work out as Mom, using me, had only an hour of sleep last night.

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Back from Paradigm where we had Burger King for lunch. Helped Mom cook dinner of potatoes, celery, onions, and chicken bits. Bought materials for my Apple Pencil “penpal”. It ‘s very roughly constructed from “secret” parts but in the spirit of sharing, MAGA, Jesus H. as well, here is what it looks like:

The principle is simple, provide a second leg to add resistance to stroke making / formation, and to provide counter torque via one’s middle finger which goes between the bendy leg and the curved wire. Results are good and I look forward to shipping some of these soon. You can try making one yourself if you’re technically inclined. And all a sudden it’s 1976 again!

Took a shower and am changed into fresh clothes. Time for meds and maybe a brief workout. Workout went well. Feeling energized. Ate a few chocolate cookies. Feel like the world is being more divided and discriminatory. Just a feeling. And I wonder on and off how my book review is going. YouTube seems to be closing its doors to me. IDK why.

Brushed. Now past 11pm. Not feeling too drowsy yet. Wrote a Medium article like I try to every day or so. So tomorrow, it's coding TeLL. Will try to finish in one sitting. Then I'm retired. Hand seems a little better today tho my little finger hurts a bit (it does on and off).

Wearing my 2200 CCG G-Shock more lately. I like that it's dirty gray plastic and ana-digi. A bit of a connoisseur's plastic digital which fits my income bracket. Quite a few hidden features and carbon fiber construction in it that go unnoticed by non-Casio fans.

Wednesday 14 May

Was up earlyish. Managed to get cleaned okay. Took a shower and changed as we will be heading out to the mall later. Managed to get my Windows 10 laptop's boot sector repaired after it the Solaris installer mangled the reserved area of my drive. Yea, I now run Solaris / Windows 10 / Ubuntu Server, on my x250 used ThinkPad. Trouble with Solaris is the wifi support is poor. Thinking of getting a wired ethernet connection for it and putting the x250 outside my room.

Mind forces reacted poorly after last night's calm down order. I guess they're okay now. Takes a while. Worked out and am feeling good.

Heading out to the mall soon. May have lunch there. Wearing my Seiko diver. Want to stop by the old house to get the B string and ethernet cable so I can set up Solaris properly.

Bought Sis her birthday present. A set of Frixion erasable color markers which should be good for sketching. I also got her a cheap and cool pencil but think I may use it myself as it's adorable in an affordable way. Total cost, 32RM. Not too bad. Should restock cash in a week's time. 6 days to my Arip jab. Am blogging this from the mall food court. Not sure when the folks will arrive. Down time.

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Made it back home from the mall. It didn't rain and we got lots of munchies, cookies, crisps etc. I decided to keep the pencil for myself until June when I may give it to Sis together with the Frixion color markers.

"William" acted out again, destroying chains of people who were innocently living life. "He who markets only for fish goes home with a fish he cooks in sour gravy and bitter wine" --ABY. This set off a spate of vengeances hitting all over Asia -a country gone mad. We tried to rein them in, but it failed.

Will spend the afternoon coding. Fixed a new high E string to my Kepma. I was wrong -the B string was fine, not the E. It came from a used set of Ernie Balls which sound a lot brighter and livelier. Trouble is I'm not much of a handyman or I would change out all the Chinese strings to EBs. Money saved, anyhow.

Off to eat some cookies and forget the trauma.

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Past 10pm, and it's time for meds and a shower. 

Tuesday 13 May

Was up early. Got cleaned well. Slept again for a few hours. People singing in my head again. Not sure what they want. Will work out later at 8am. Maybe do some coding until lunch time. Workout went well. Feeling energized.

Managed to get cleaned again. I often go twice a day nowadays, as I near middle age. Submitted my book to a publisher who offers traditional contracts. My novella is so far the most unique they’ve seen but has to battle it out with (so far this year) 4 very good books by other authors. By year’s end, my book will be the 18th best written. But perhaps its uniqueness will gain me a free contract. We’ll have to wait and see.

Yet to code TeLL. Maybe after lunch. Will try to form some algorithms, not just the current simple true-false which isn’t very useful.

Took an early afternoon shower and changed. Feeling / smelling clean and fresh. Decided to try and salvage an old B string for my Kepma Mini which suffered a snap. Also will hold off making the magnetic quiver. Spent too much the past 4 weeks.

Wrote (casually) a new song in A and E. I think the last one was D and C. This one is bluesy. Will not be writing more songs until later in the year. Still can’t think of any simple algorithms for TeLL. Must remember to write on self-justification / Spirit tonight.

I've tuned Windows 11 to be more responsive and use less memory. My poor Celeron had been struggling with the memory compression that I now disabled, and I also used the ample 12GB of RAM to make a 2GB disk cache. Now my Aspire from 2018 runs much better. Downgrading to a BT 3.0 option worked wonders for my wireless Alcatroz Jellybean keyboard that was stalling on BT 5.x. Made my Windows great again!

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Closing in on midnight and I've written a new song, making 3 in 2 days. Tim was writing with me and so was Suzannah who contributed some expression to a chord or two. I'm not sure why we were put together and given goosebumps of one another. But really, these are simple songs a kid can play and sing.

Installing Solaris wiped my Windows boot partition and getting it back is proving to be hard. I have made a recovery USB stick but it still doesn't work right. Maybe tomorrow. Took my meds.

TeLL's algorithms are just waiting to be coded in. Should be quick work tomorrow.

Monday 12 May

Was up early. Managed to get cleaned well. Brushed. Missed my meds last night after falling asleep, tired circa 10pm. Didn't code TeLL. Instead, talked in mindspace on the Tribulation. Doing God's work is more important than coding an obscure mathematical Python app that nobody will need when Jesus comes. Writing a song would actually be more productive. I haven't got round to making my quiver or Apple pencil legs yet.

Today is Wesak Day -a Buddhist holiday here in Malaysia. I thought I would try and write something, a Medium article, on divining the start month-year of Tribulation or if we're in it already, when did it begin?

Some pain-giving still going on from the ball of hatred that's been eating up the world's resources. Lots of misconceptions such as "one person protecting the world" -things I need to address in online posts here and on DogBlots, Medium, etc.

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Check latest post on DogBlots: The Math of Morality, where I explain the degree by which we must restrain ourselves in these end times. "For in the last days, men shall be lovers of pleasure and not lovers of God". Something we should try to avoid. But as we are in danger of offending the Spirit, we need not make a fuss over avoiding pleasure for the Spirit is disgusted over self-justified holiness. IDK why yet. Maybe a topic for future study.

Sunday 11 May

Fell asleep last night without finishing my coding work or the Revelations chart. Somehow, in the night, I was healed in my hand quite a bit, perhaps by the prayers of the faithful, perhaps the Liews lost support, perhaps both. It's past 6am and I just got cleaned well.

Last night, I told the sad story of how God abandoned nephilim-blooded me as an infant after I got punched up in the womb and made a little retarded. But that was over 48 years ago. And the motives of the Father may change, maybe, maybe not. I was shown several possible futures, some rather glorious. Not sure how to get the best one. The worst one is being locked in a small room with a view of a garden. The best one, sitting at the second table at the wedding feast. All depends.

Had tapau wonton noodles for lunch. Working on the Revelations chart in Canvas. Family lashing out as they had tried to see into the future and take a share in it when they were young and are now being shunned despite showing their signs and evidences.

Due to the pain attacks, work on my chart is going slow. Still don’t know what to add to TeLL to make it a useful app tho it runs fine now. Just 4 days to finish coding and 12 hours to complete the chart.

House cleaning at 2pm, and 4pm. Have made good progress on the Revelations chart. Thinking I may post it on my website tonight. Looks quite authoritative. Sis brought Mom fish porridge. She's still poorly after her stomach flu, insomnia, and fall.

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Chores done, and so is the chart on Revelations. Head over to my site: FreeLunch.my/salvation to view it if you're curious. There seems not to be a pre- or mid- trib rapture. So there's the answer to so many end times questions!

Dad is taking us out for dinner tonight. Mom has other plans as she is still feeling poorly after her fall. May get her something to drink. I am dehydrated again for some reason, having very amberish urine. Yet I didn't sweat almost at all.

Tonight, will be adding some relational code to TeLL so it will be something more than just a comparator, but actually something 'intelligent'. Then after this, will retire. Not sure if I want to make my quiver idea this week or next as money is a little tight. Perhaps in late May.

Got cleaned again with no problems. Had a dossi for dinner out. Will code in a bit, not sure what to leverage. In just few days, I could be retired. No more chasing after the wind. Will turn in a little later tonight and see if I can lay down some good algorithms circa 11pm-12am.

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Past 9pm. Trouble in the mindspaces due to the Liew witches caught. Enforcing law is in order.

Saturday 10 May

Turning in in an hour's time after being late taking my meds. Got a bit addicted to coding TeLL. It works now but needs added functionality to be really useful. It might be just a little code, hopefully. Urine is telling me I'm very dehydrated. Some kind of problem rolling off Dad's kidney failure risk. Meanwhile Mom hasn't slept in over 24 hours. Gave her some TLC and a Rivotril. Sis made her some tasty soup. But I can't worry too much as I have a church meet tomorrow. Must leave circa 9am.

Usually, my eyes get tired first and then my brain fogs. We discovered a good method of policing the mind -some kind of psychosomatic control of the emotions. It can be improved further. Everyone is going back to normal before the Liews offended everyone -witchy Liews that is.

And I was thinking a single person who knows a few dozen friends can destabilize the whole world if he didn't adhere to custom and decency. And the whole world will submit to that one troublemaker. Even feed him with Christian souls to destroy. The Jews killed Jesus and the prophets who told about him. Not a surprise -it's human nature of the oppressed.

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Got up early as Mom had a fall and minor head injury. At least she slept a few hours compared to last night. I slept 3 hours. Will be meeting my church group later. Meanwhile am taking care of Mom until Sis, who is a physician, wakes up. It's a weekend and most people are sleeping in. Took a shower and changed into fresh clothes. Got cleaned easily as well.

Have to make it to church meet but am feeling sleepy. I'm somehow also dehydrated tho I don't sweat much. 5 minutes till I have to leave home.

Made it safely to Bible seminar. Was butt sweated on the way but I survived. Hair looking a bit sparse, unfortunately.

Friday 9 May

Was up lateish. Managed to get cleaned well. While I slept, a new pope was elected: Pope Leo XIV from America. The ABY doesn’t mention Leo specifically but that a servant of God who is humble will be elected. Is Leo humble and is his (spiritual) burden a little too heavy? Time will tell.

Worked out and am feeling good. Liew forces winging out at our heads with bruising strikes. Celebrating something, I guess.

Back from the mall grocer where we had lunch as well. Mom is down with gastritis and sleep deprivation. She may deserve a bit of that for force medicating me. And preventing my sleep way back as well, leading to my stroke in 2006-2007. But family is family, so I got her some malted milk cookies and strawberry yogurt to dip them. She’s fast asleep right now.

As usual, the pains and bruisings continue. And maybe soon, direct persecution of Christians. There won’t be many left alive by 2027 I think. Strikes continue, from evil ones and the offended self-righteous, glancing against my brain and other sensitive nerves. Will be doing some coding later to pass the time.

Fired up the old Celeron and am bug hunting. Hope to get them all.

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Good session of bug fixing. I now have output of Truth and Lies. But what to do with it graphically / analytically? Something that hasn't crystalized yet. Maybe another session at 8pm. I really have nothing to do as the family crumbles and our fortunes look worse by the week.

More schemes by dying people who did too much sorcery in mindspace blow up, as they are judged and punished by the masses of religious Christians and other faiths who practice mind warfare. They are trying to align with God’s prophecy and sail alongside with impunity. My poor cousin was duped to destroy us and I could see her full of western witches, while noticeably American ones were in our family women. It’s hard to see where this will be going, as someone with amnesia.

There’s one last bug in Tell, that the Lies apparently = Truth.

Thursday 8 May

1am, the B string on my Kepma guitar just snapped. This fulfilled a prophecy made by my psychologist, call him Dr. J. Weird thing was he thought it was a ‘bow’ string but it was not, just the 2nd string of a guitar. He also called out my sister’s marriage to be dissolved but more like my friendly cousin’s instead.

Doc, if you’re listening, and he is, (he says) it’s war. Maybe a world war.

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Was up lateish. Managed to get cleaned easily. Washed afterwards so am feeling fresh. My ocarina is in PJ, arriving today or tomorrow as planned. Liew witches are singing again. This time I can hear several songs at once. They seem weaker.

As predicted, no white smoke from the Sistine Chapel. Hopefully this evening. Brushed and drank some water. More poisonings of children went on in my sleep. I don’t feel very well right now, supporting the victims of this evil plot. Perhaps made by the Liew witches onto sinful families.

Uncertain my ocarina will arrive today, foiling plans for lunch out with Dad. Mom has an appointment at the hospital as well. Feeling hopeful and more cheerful despite the poison attacks caused by the Liew witches. We are unable to help much at the moment due to too few mind doctors in the mindspace.

Quite a lot of healings going on. We cannot let God down. We cannot let kids die en mass. Had a short rest and refueled and am working the mindspaces.

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Dad is buying lunch while I wait at home for my parcel. Am thinking of my important possessions / stories / inventions and how they affect my life and my future prospects in the tribulation.

My novella

My game(s)

My compound bow

My ocarina

My phone

My sandals

My SAK

My iPad

Don’t think there are too many others. Less than a dozen all in all, I believe.

Apparently my parcel will arrive late afternoon. Hope this cheaper ocarina sounds sweet as advertised. I decided to go into archery accessories instead of selling stories, songs, and games. Something people find useful day to day might make better money. My I-Ching guide is being downloaded lots more than iS, because it’s directly applicable, not simply “good fun”. 

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Major manipulations by the Liew witches cause unrest in the west. We cannot simply remove the Liews at this stage but have to put the world back together first and ensure God is in full control again since the mass disobedience occurred in mindspace. There is actually a lot to do.

My ocarina arrived and is quite pleasant. Gave me a scare by needing extra breath for left side control. In a way it is good, a more expressive instrument than the TNG ceramic which sounds boring by comparison. What became of it? I dropped it and it broke into shards. This ABS plastic one should survive tho.

Having roast chicken for dinner, my marinade. Also wrote a guitar song. Ex-GF is thinking of visiting me on condition I do not stray. She is very diminutive and has been counting prophecy like so many around me. Well better a GF than no GF!

Showered and am changed into fresh clothes. Much needed after getting cleaned. Sometimes gas causes me trouble in my middle age. According to CNN, there's no decision on the new pope yet, this second day of the conclave.

Tomorrow I will be out to the hardware store to get supplies for my quiver idea. Take a long walk in the process. May go to MidValley as it is convenient. Thinking I may miss the Penang trip with my church as I overspent this month. Would be quite an adventure but health-wise it's a bit of a hassle.

Wednesday 7 May

Was up early. Managed to get clean easily. Snuck into the shower to wash and so have no need to change clothes. Saves my shorts. The papal conclave is today. Will they elect "Peter the Roman"? And is there a pre-tribulation rapture after all?

Rumblings of thunder in the early pre-dawn sky. The plastic ocarina I ordered is on its way. Should receive it tomorrow. Seems to be of decent quality.

Back from a medium walk with Mom round the park. She's gone to buy lunch while I retreated to my room to cool down. British mind forces causing trouble in the east again. Not sure what's the issue here. Maybe more witchy manipulations by the Liew 6. Unable to work much on Tell. No word from the game publisher on project Fragment. It may be that I leave the earth poor as I was born and with a load of hurt to bear as well.

What an adventure! I may be going on a 9 hour journey to the north this month, 4 hours plus by train. May have to spend overnight there due to the late hours. Fare is reasonable, 30ish RM one way. Hope the hotel is cheap too. Want to meet my church mates and have a good time discussing the tribulation and testimonies.

Posted a YouTube short just now, playing Even My Heart Can Break. It's a good song that I finally found the chords to lately. Sounds boomy on the Pebble speakers.

Not very popular, my new short video. Nevermind. Wearing my Mudman solar. This will be my travel  watch as it won't run out of batteries or spring power, and has a compass which is handy for navigation in a strange place. It also doesn't look expensive and is rugged. My ocarina hasn't shipped yet, which is worrying. Hopefully it will arrive by Friday.

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Just had dinner. Apparently there has been a mass poisoning pinned on me using wood polish to lube my chromatic (slide) harmonica. Not sure if it’s true. I do feel a little ill myself but that can be for many reasons like people pushed into my body temporarily. Something to do with the Giacomo Turra chat we’d been having to help him out after the music theft incident. What a backfire!

Anyway, the papal conclave is in full swing and we expect Parolin to be elected within 24 hours. Giacomo is Italian for ‘supplanter’ and Turra is Spanish for a prostitute. What are we in for, some ride, I guess. And my plastic ocarina has shipped all the way from down south.

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Past 9pm and the world is still peaceful. Maybe I was worried for nothing. Strange videos on YouTube making the rounds, they’ve found the Imam Mehedi and he’s also the Antichrist. Israel is increasingly embattled and I suspect there will be world war soon. Hard to use any clairvoyant powers at this stage with so many forces involved in the action. Once again, I am unable to code Tell. Feeling a bit oppressed. Earlier was sleepy due to Mom’s insomnia. I don’t know what to do with tonight other than write things in my blogs.

Took my meds and brushed. Almost 11pm. Wrote a Medium article on my search for that killer bow quiver versus the world unrest. Some months ago, I set out to DIY one, now the design seems to work. Exercise soon and will sleep circa midnight.

Tuesday 6 May

Was up late. Managed to get cleaned a bit. Try again later. Visitors to my website are fewer lately. Pope should be elected today or tomorrow. Worrying less about the end times. Mending my relationship with God so as not to offend Him.

My weight is above 90 kg now. I have somehow got to get it down to 83 kg, pronto. Think I could skip breakfast and not snack anymore which are easy to do. Just 2 meals a day. And walk / work out a bit more.

Am stuck at the mall with nothing to do but wait for the folks. Was attacked with gassing but so far so good. Thought of buying NF Afrina's novel Not here to stay for circa 40RM at Popular but passed for now. Apparently, my game, project Fragment is a minor hit with test groups in Europe. I may get a bit of passive income from this soon.

Wonder what big money can come from a house as Jesus said. My novella, iS, has been read by many, behind our backs. It has gained accolades. Not sure when or if it will turn into returns for me. Almost all my readers got something out of it, felt transformed which is cool.

Back from the mall. Family and Liew witchy forces moving to cut off my prospective income already. They derive some joy from destroying Christians. And soon they will cut us down in droves as the outside conditions become more favorable for them. I'm not sure what or who they'll do first -or how to escape.

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Managed to get cleaned well. Took a shower and changed into fresh clothes. Took my meds. Almost 10:30pm now. Have to brush and work out by midnight. Wrote a ukulele song just now. My family is betting I will take a string instrument on board the ‘vessel’ but in reality, it is something smaller by far: a simple bone flute / ocarina.

I ordered the plastic ocarina on Shopee. It should arrive in 2 days' time. Cost: 30RM. The ocarina is my most proficient instrument, and I should have got the plastic model years ago. Lately my ceramic one broke on fall. Plan to take this instrument with me a lot.

Brushed and worked out. Maybe tomorrow, a long walk. Installed a free DAW for my Windows 11 workstation. It has a store where you can purchase add-ons. But it's nearly midnight and time to turn in. Must watch the papal conclave tomorrow, late.

Monday 5 May

Was up earlyish. Managed to get cleaned well. Have to diet from today onwards. And keep up exercising. I recorded "One Last Song" earlier. Sounds quite good so I posted it on Tumblr. Felt sleepy so I didn't go walking with Mom. Also didn't attend my Bible study group as I was busy recording and forgot to log on. For some reason, Mom now wants control of the car -our little metro.

Was supposed to touch on some end times issues people are facing. I think it is due to a life lived on others' ticket and credit. This is making some feel bad -that these others they lived on were pretty good people with promising futures. But first a shout out to Giacomo Turra -you are loved, stay strong and fight the good fight. Be more careful. Keep wearing that baseball cap backwards.

Had to get cleaned again which hopefully is the last time today. Washed up well without changing clothes. It is a hassle in this small shoebox of a house. Don't feel much like working. Maybe around dinner time. Submitted my boardgame to a French publisher after the Austrians turned it down as "not fun enough". They were into amusement games.

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Helped make dinner. I am dieting as of tonight. Found a good volume setting for my new Pebble speakers. They sound best at 1/2 volume while the soundcard is at full volume and Foobar2000, used to adjust the overall amplitude.

Took a much-needed shower and am changed into fresh clothes. There is talk of myself being pursued by 2 women in mindspace. I'm not sure how to love both of them who waited so patiently.

Sunday 4 May

Woke up very early this morning and napped for a few hours just now. Westerners attacked for some reason. My amnesia is bad. I think they wanted to destroy Asian Christians or something similar. Nothing new but still annoying. Fortunately it blew over with some sexual persuasion and / or nerve manipulation (for the younger ones). Taking Asian wives is a well known practice of peace and reconciliation among Americans mainly.

Been enjoying my new Pebble speakers. Partly they look much nicer than any USB speakers on the market right now. I had to EQ them before they sounded good playing my vinyl rips thru Foobar2000. Just a gentle linear slope from bass to treble worked wonders. I am most proud of these new speakers.

Back from a medium long walk with Mom, round the park. There was a lot of trouble in the mindspaces this morning. I think everyone is nervous about the wars and trade wars starting to flare up, the earthquakes, tsunami threat, and the financial crunch happening right now. Not least, that Christ is coming to judge the world and many who used telepathy haven't washed and guarded their 'clothes''.

Just 15 minutes to rest before weekend chores.

Finished sweeping and mopping. Also showered and changed into fresh clothes. Managed to get cleaned earlier. Now past 4pm. Mom is making a steamed omelette for dinner. Liew witches zapping me again, trying to elbow into our safe house in the mindspace. 

Am leaving for the bistro soon as we'll be having dinner out for a change.

Back from the mamak. Had a Pepsi and Maggi goreng. Quite spicy and good. Cracks in our family showing, not sure why. Is Jesus coming soon? Will work on "Tell" around 9pm.

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Took my meds just now. Showered. Found out that my new speakers were obscuring the wireless keyboard signal to my netbook and moved them away. Cleared the drain trap in the bathroom and picked up a worm which thankfully washed off and back down the drain again. Creepy. Perhaps a sign not to criticize God for losing control of the telepathy crisis that we suffer every day. He did lose control back in the 60s-70s and rumors abounded He had died. 

"If men were united as one -what could they not achieve"

Desperate times called for desperate maneuvers, and I chose to live and love life instead of sacrificing myself like a single army recruit dying on the beaches on D-Day. I was only a baby when called upon to do what seemed impossible and to this day, I have karma riding my back 24-7. Anyway, I'm repentant, Lord for disagreeing with you during this critical period but I am pretty ill and as usual unable to serve you well as I should. Will try to do better as soon as possible.

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Closing in on midnight. Feeling a little sleepy. I have 500RM in my wallet. And about 50RM handy at home. Should be enough for 2 more church meets until I get fresh funds in. Will try submitting my game design around again.

Will work out a little now then turn in soon.

Saturday 3 May

Was up earlyish. Managed to get cleaned okay. Drank some dried salt prune powder water. Almost 8am. Not much time to work at my computer. Western forces and Liew witches battle over my mindspace, asking for miracles for their sins. IDK what to do.

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I'm home after a full day out listening to Bible study and end-times seminar. It's getting spookily real, how accurate the prophets were. I sent our teacher (not to say Pastor), my website link -on salvation, the graphs and predictions, and mark of the beast analysis. He was okay with receving that. We shared communion with bread and real wine. I also paid for lunch as it was cheap and there were only 5 of us. Eating free is as nice a feeling as being able to afford to feed your bros and sis in Christ.

Since the evil witches prevented my staying on, I detoured to LowYat where I bought the Creative Pebble speakers (old version going cheap). They are pretty nice-sounding and look unique / expensive. I regret buying the Edifiers, some years back. Will do a full review on Medium later on.

Friday 2 May

Was up earlyish. Managed to get cleaned well. No doubt these days, there will be another round. Brushed, and am at my computer, working. Liew forces still singing Frances Yip in my head. At least they've eased off on my hand which they were withering. Looking forward to tomorrow's church meet.

Showered and am changed into fresh clothes. May head out on a walk with Mom later. Still researching my prophecy chart.

Broke to charge my wireless keyboard and mouse. Had my regular orgasm. It helps under stressful conditions. Heals the mind and body. Haven't had breakfast and it's past 8am.

Had nasi lemak for lunch. Will work out later tonight. Less pressure on my nerves. Taught about the soul: mind, heart, body, and spirit, and how they relate to positive and negative emotions and actions (pleasures essentially).

By the sweat of your face shall you eat bread, until you return to the earth from which you were taken. For dust you are, and unto dust you shall return.__Genesis 3:19

Notice God doesn't just say you will "work darn hard" for a living but He says, "sweat of your FACE". This is because suffering and pleasure come from the mind -the disobedient nature of man / woman. We see that Adam and Eve were ashamed -they suffered, and it was in their minds because they hid from God. The mind of man is sinful, yea: the ruler of our souls. What else of man feels free to contemplate his future and his flesh towards it? The MIND. The awareness. The decider of fate.

And if you bear with me, Also in Genesis is the passage,

And then the Lord God formed man from the clay of the earth, and he breathed into his face the breath of life, and man became a living soul__Genesis 2:7

Here (at least in my Bible) we see God breathing into Adam's face, the Spirit. We see "man BECAME a LIVING soul" never mind that clay contained the primordial protein structures God must have manipulated. It was through the mind (face), that all the energies within the first man were awoken. Be therefore careful of your thinking for it controls much flesh.

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Back from a medium long walk with Mom, around the park. She's gone on to the grocer, but the heat has forced me back home to my air-conditioned room. Still haven't finished my prophecy chart as the Liew witches bear down on me.

C. K. Yap, Theory of Salvation is now finished but there could be minor edits over the weeks ahead as I double check the prophecies with the Bible versus the ABY. Right now, these are my judgments at a glance which seem tho to fit quite well into the seals, trumpets, and bowls.

Drank an iced black coffee. Want to resume coding 'Tell' now. Guess I will not be writing another novella, just retire once and for all.